WEBVTT 02:04.197 --> 02:05.058 Good evening everyone. 02:05.719 --> 02:07.521 Welcome to our live broadcast. 02:18.234 --> 02:29.327 Today we're looking at the Anguttar Nikaya Book of Fours, starting with Sutta 17. 02:34.218 --> 02:41.370 Another fairly brief teaching, but one that I think is important. 02:41.590 --> 02:42.471 It's important to know. 02:45.837 --> 02:47.700 I translate as inclinations. 02:51.025 --> 03:01.542 But it's a simple, the word is simply going or coming. 03:06.297 --> 03:07.378 Agati. 03:07.398 --> 03:07.919 Agati. 03:13.346 --> 03:14.288 The four agatis. 03:14.969 --> 03:16.831 Agati is like partiality. 03:18.754 --> 03:27.245 It means being predisposed for or against something. 03:31.391 --> 03:35.376 I think it's important because this sums up the 03:37.111 --> 04:03.625 concept of our reactions being most important that the big shift that has to come about is not in the experiences we encounter but in our reactions to them we don't come to meditate to try and 04:05.714 --> 04:07.836 change the experiences we have. 04:10.799 --> 04:16.744 We come to meditate to change the way we interact with them, change the way we look at them, first and foremost. 04:22.689 --> 04:34.540 Those things we think of as problems, those things we think of as desirable, our ambitions, 04:36.140 --> 04:51.897 our dearest possessions and friends and enemies, all these things we were inclined in certain ways, predisposed towards these things in certain ways. 04:55.001 --> 05:01.388 Spiders, so many people are strongly predisposed towards spiders. 05:05.332 --> 05:06.113 Snakes, 05:07.595 --> 05:23.030 On the other hand, flowers, cigarettes, the naked body, urine, feces, we're predisposed to so many different things. 05:25.413 --> 05:34.902 And it's not even predisposed because we cultivate dispositions, we cultivate inclinations, we cultivate the four agati. 05:37.244 --> 05:39.967 they're habitual, they're habits that we cultivate. 05:41.469 --> 05:57.406 You might desire something a little bit or you might think, oh that looks interesting and then when you obtain it, sure enough, it's pleasant and that's the reinforcement of the desire for the object. 05:57.426 --> 06:06.036 So the next time you have an actual substantial desire for it and then the next time and the next time and the next time it becomes an addiction 06:09.104 --> 06:24.468 So it's quite scary actually how strong these predispositions can become but it's quite encouraging on the other hand that they're simply constructs. 06:24.488 --> 06:27.112 They can be done away with simply by changing your habits. 06:34.904 --> 06:37.508 So the four agatthi are 06:38.939 --> 06:48.995 Chanda, Chandagati, inclination or being inclined because of desire. 06:53.242 --> 06:57.349 Dosagati, being inclined or predisposed because of anger. 06:59.793 --> 07:06.043 Mohagati, being inclined out of delusion. 07:07.930 --> 07:36.537 and bhāyāgati, being disposed out of fear predisposed, inclined I mean, these are most clear in their relation to our relationships with other people We're partial towards other people out of our attachment to them We 07:37.951 --> 07:41.376 This is how we distinguish between friends and enemies. 07:41.456 --> 07:43.759 We help our friends, we try to hurt our enemies. 07:46.542 --> 07:54.533 When we're partial to certain individuals, when we're partial to certain experiences, we treat them differently. 08:02.063 --> 08:07.570 Favoritism, this idea of favoring people, certain people over other people, 08:09.338 --> 08:20.588 Generally when you see people of the same race as you, the same color skin for example, this is where racism and bigotry come from. 08:22.950 --> 08:38.805 When you see someone who's different colored skin, you're generally predisposed in certain ways towards them, maybe out of liking them, maybe out of hating them, maybe out of fear of them, mostly out of delusion. 08:40.135 --> 08:42.457 delusion because somehow you think it's meaningful. 08:46.842 --> 08:49.505 On the other hand, you can be predisposed out of wisdom. 08:51.527 --> 08:55.571 Not predisposed, but disposed, inclined out of wisdom. 08:55.871 --> 08:57.793 You can be inclined to avoid certain things. 08:57.873 --> 08:58.794 For example, a snake. 09:00.035 --> 09:04.340 You see a snake on the side of the road and you know that that snake is poisonous. 09:05.441 --> 09:07.763 It's not wrong to be inclined to stay away from it. 09:09.920 --> 09:12.083 But it's wrong to be inclined out of these four things. 09:12.203 --> 09:13.465 It's not wrong to be inclined. 09:14.026 --> 09:15.207 You can be inclined to meditate. 09:15.248 --> 09:15.648 That's good. 09:16.950 --> 09:24.881 Dhammachanda, desire to practice the Dhamma. 09:24.901 --> 09:26.403 It's an inclination of sorts. 09:26.563 --> 09:36.197 But when you're inclined out of lust or inclined out of hatred, inclined out of delusion or fear, 09:38.438 --> 09:43.142 We tend not to make the rational choices that would bring you peace and resolution. 09:47.426 --> 09:52.031 We react hastily out of fear and out of anger, out of desire. 09:53.832 --> 09:57.136 We have a hard time discerning what is in our best interest. 09:59.998 --> 10:06.184 This is people eat too much or engage in constant entertainment or 10:08.442 --> 10:14.129 They're constantly bickering or fighting or harming others, complaining. 10:17.514 --> 10:19.857 They create conflict and enmity. 10:23.682 --> 10:33.274 Or they ruin things through delusion, confusion, arrogance, conceit. 10:33.294 --> 10:34.956 You can think of it like being bent. 10:36.826 --> 10:41.434 inclined in a certain direction is like being bent out of shape. 10:41.454 --> 10:42.476 Our minds are crooked. 10:44.741 --> 10:46.484 We use this word in English, crooked. 10:47.626 --> 10:49.149 Someone who's crooked is not honest. 10:49.870 --> 10:50.792 It's not straight up. 10:50.892 --> 10:51.613 It's not upright. 10:52.375 --> 10:55.200 There's something weaselly about them. 10:55.260 --> 10:59.728 And a weasel is slippery and not straightforward. 11:03.843 --> 11:08.408 Meditation is about cultivating rectitude, straightness. 11:12.252 --> 11:12.732 Ujju. 11:12.752 --> 11:14.234 There's actually a word for it. 11:14.254 --> 11:16.616 The Sangha has said to be ujju, straightforward. 11:18.238 --> 11:21.301 They don't act out of desire. 11:21.341 --> 11:22.702 They don't act out of hatred. 11:22.742 --> 11:24.604 They don't act out of delusion. 11:24.644 --> 11:25.725 They don't act out of fear. 11:28.508 --> 11:29.790 So we try to be objective. 11:29.810 --> 11:32.112 This is really the key in the meditation practice. 11:36.530 --> 11:37.952 Don't worry about what you experience. 11:37.992 --> 11:39.154 Don't try to fix things. 11:40.475 --> 11:42.378 Even your reactions, don't try to fix them. 11:42.418 --> 11:43.880 Just try to be straight about everything. 11:45.582 --> 11:47.204 If you're angry, just know that you're angry. 11:47.265 --> 11:48.767 Say to yourself, angry, angry. 11:48.787 --> 11:50.008 Remind yourself, that's anger. 11:51.190 --> 11:56.157 If you experience something that you like or you would normally want, well, try to just see it for what it is. 11:56.257 --> 11:57.038 It's just seeing. 11:57.098 --> 11:57.739 It's just hearing. 11:58.440 --> 12:03.887 If you feel happy about something, pleased by something, try and see it just as pleasure. 12:08.440 --> 12:11.163 Don't be partial or cultivate favoritism. 12:21.095 --> 12:25.921 Your mind becomes straight and like a straight tree, your mind becomes strong. 12:26.021 --> 12:26.842 It's able to grow. 12:26.922 --> 12:35.612 You're only able to really grow and reach the sky if you're upright. 12:37.904 --> 12:45.114 When the mind is crooked like a crooked tree, it can't grow and it fails and falters and withers and dies. 12:52.864 --> 13:07.303 So, if you remember these four, it's kind of like the, it's actually just the first three, greed, anger, and delusion, but they add fear in here because it specifically, or the Buddha adds fear because it specifically, I think, relates to dealing with people. 13:08.718 --> 13:24.855 This is applying to favoritism towards people, but it's quite useful to know these types of partiality, how we're not straightforward and objective, how we treat people and experiences differently based on our inclination. 13:25.256 --> 13:26.680 These things color our judgment. 13:26.720 --> 13:27.722 They color our experience. 13:37.388 --> 13:51.005 We have a Pali verse here. 13:52.767 --> 14:07.125 If through desire, hate, fear or delusion one transgresses against the Dhamma, one's fame diminishes like the moon in the dark fortnight 14:08.455 --> 14:15.426 This is the half of the moon where the moon, the half of the month where the moon gets darker and darker every day. 14:16.828 --> 14:19.893 So it's specifically relating to people. 14:20.834 --> 14:23.398 It has to do with fame, your reputation. 14:25.842 --> 14:32.893 When you have a reputation for favoritism, when you don't treat people objectively, 14:35.827 --> 15:03.724 you don't think of what's most helpful to people spending lots of time chatting with people when there's no benefit coming or dismissing people when they want to and they have questions and concerns about the Dhamma partial to certain experiences 15:05.122 --> 15:33.711 partial to certain mind states partial to certain feelings for and against basically the thing is don't relate to things try not to relate to things with greed or anger don't let that be the defining feature or delusion where you make decisions based on your emotions rather than what's 15:35.632 --> 15:37.755 right and what's wrong, what's actually good for you. 15:38.536 --> 15:40.279 Because these things won't tell you that. 15:42.001 --> 15:42.822 These are habits. 15:43.683 --> 15:44.965 They're not based on reality. 15:47.789 --> 15:51.615 Because when you start to see reality for what it is, your habits change. 15:53.657 --> 15:55.440 You develop habits based on wisdom. 15:56.101 --> 16:04.693 And then your inclination is all based on experience, knowledge, knowing that, ah, this is actually not good for me, this is good for me, that kind of thing. 16:10.985 --> 16:16.914 So that's our little bit of Dhamma for tonight. 16:25.988 --> 16:39.068 How are we doing? 16:40.735 --> 16:44.340 Robin, you're way over on the left-hand side of your screen. 16:44.360 --> 16:44.921 Why is that? 16:46.183 --> 16:46.323 Oh. 16:48.286 --> 16:49.187 You know why I ask? 16:49.247 --> 16:54.875 Because when I put you in our screen, I've cut off the sides. 16:56.457 --> 16:57.018 Oh, okay. 16:57.038 --> 16:58.981 And then it cuts part of you. 16:59.001 --> 17:01.825 It kind of cuts you off. 17:01.845 --> 17:03.707 I probably just moved the webcam. 17:03.727 --> 17:04.769 It's a separate webcam. 17:05.329 --> 17:05.730 Is that... 17:08.107 --> 17:08.728 That's better. 17:08.928 --> 17:09.168 Better? 17:10.189 --> 17:10.489 Sort of. 17:11.370 --> 17:12.711 I think I've actually adjusted. 17:12.771 --> 17:13.592 Are you now in the middle? 17:18.215 --> 17:19.477 Yeah, I don't see what you see, so. 17:20.037 --> 17:20.437 Oh, you don't? 17:22.059 --> 17:23.780 Well, you're in the bottom right corner. 17:23.800 --> 17:28.124 If you click on your picture in the bottom right corner, it should come up big, and you can see it. 17:28.144 --> 17:32.427 OK. Now you're centered, sort of. 17:33.168 --> 17:34.789 See, but now I've got you off center. 17:37.952 --> 17:38.012 OK. 17:43.088 --> 17:44.191 Are you ready for some questions? 17:44.311 --> 17:47.340 I'm ready for some questions. 17:47.360 --> 17:57.148 Yesterday I asked about Kama Yoga and practices outside Satipa Khana to assist in furthering a wholesome state and wasn't specific. 17:57.753 --> 18:08.628 What would your advice be for someone who has cut off a bond with a person and, despite the rightness of the decision, is struggling with the craving and attachment that comes from second guessing and loss? 18:09.429 --> 18:11.011 Are there any additional practices? 18:11.772 --> 18:17.520 More specifically, despite the mindfulness, noting, and meditation, the mind isn't letting go. 18:17.540 --> 18:23.828 To be even more specific, it's mostly... 18:35.063 --> 18:38.827 I mean, you can't force your mind to let go, which is what you're seeing. 18:38.867 --> 18:41.670 It's not just simple like that, where you say, okay, let go, let go. 18:43.311 --> 18:49.157 And that's part of the, it's an important lesson for you, is to see that the mind doesn't work the way you think it does. 18:58.747 --> 19:03.552 I mean, sure, there's lots of things you can do to help yourself, but none of them are really going to be 19:04.932 --> 19:06.594 None of them are really going to be sufficient. 19:18.570 --> 19:20.132 Surround yourself with good people. 19:22.275 --> 19:31.868 Find a community of like-minded individuals that help you get over it, help you, remind you of good things, that kind of thing. 19:34.565 --> 19:35.666 But in the end, there's no trick. 19:36.367 --> 19:37.788 You've just got to slog through it. 19:39.390 --> 19:41.732 There's no way to make it easy or comfortable. 19:43.293 --> 19:49.659 It's like withdrawal, and it's way worse than any kind of drug, because it's something we've held onto for a long time. 19:58.968 --> 20:01.230 In the end, it's just meditation that's going to help you. 20:07.218 --> 20:09.323 But it won't suddenly turn these things off. 20:09.403 --> 20:13.712 It's just helping you to understand and to let go. 20:13.772 --> 20:17.941 And let go means let come as well. 20:18.202 --> 20:18.582 Let be. 20:19.865 --> 20:20.687 Don't react. 20:22.010 --> 20:22.892 Don't give it energy. 20:22.912 --> 20:23.573 Don't feed it. 20:34.218 --> 20:34.879 Hi, Monthe. 20:34.999 --> 20:45.073 My introduction to meditation and Buddhist books was quite young in my teens, but I've come to think that it played some detrimental effect on me. 20:45.774 --> 20:55.808 Recently, when I was young, I had the impression that Buddhism taught that thinking is not good, so I feel I had not done enough reflecting and introspective critical thinking when it should be done. 20:56.669 --> 20:59.432 Even now, I don't quite understand every time I read about Buddhism. 20:59.913 --> 21:02.757 It always says to note thinking as thinking itself. 21:03.361 --> 21:05.823 as if we should reduce our thoughts in our life. 21:06.484 --> 21:11.249 When I feel wise, people in history are known for lots of deep contemplation in their lives. 21:11.810 --> 21:12.230 Thank you. 21:15.874 --> 21:28.486 First of all, when you know something as thinking, when you know thinking as thinking, there's no part of that that even hints or implies that you should reduce your thinking. 21:29.287 --> 21:31.029 That's not at all what it's saying. 21:31.049 --> 21:32.170 Maybe you should read it again. 21:33.770 --> 21:46.063 But I guess the implication is, which is still part of what you're saying, I suppose, is that you're not reacting or acting out on it. 21:46.464 --> 21:52.410 You're not inclining your mind towards it. 21:52.430 --> 22:03.422 But as far as people in history known for lots of deep contemplation, I mean, the fact, the idea that they're wise is certainly up for debate. 22:05.377 --> 22:09.562 If you want to follow their lead, go ahead. 22:10.823 --> 22:12.445 But the Buddha didn't follow their lead. 22:13.847 --> 22:18.412 Not on everything, anyway. 22:18.432 --> 22:19.694 So you have to decide. 22:19.754 --> 22:24.179 If you think that it's better to think a lot, then go ahead. 22:25.140 --> 22:28.144 But you know how our Buddhism stands, that thinking is not 22:29.440 --> 22:30.524 Thinking is not the answer. 22:30.584 --> 22:31.809 Thinking isn't a solution. 22:31.849 --> 22:36.447 There's no reason why thinking should benefit you or enlighten you. 22:37.431 --> 22:38.455 Not substantially. 22:40.898 --> 22:44.983 It's funny how people think and then somehow think that they're going to come up with an answer. 22:45.023 --> 22:48.327 If you read Descartes' meditations, it's quite interesting. 22:48.367 --> 22:54.634 I mean, obviously, I don't believe with, I don't agree with many of the things Descartes said, but he really did meditate, you know. 22:54.695 --> 23:03.425 He tried to, you could say he thought, but he was really trying to observe his experience and see what was real. 23:04.687 --> 23:09.252 It was a valiant effort without the Buddha's wisdom, but, and he failed, but 23:10.227 --> 23:15.918 He certainly tried, and it gives you an idea of the sort of difference. 23:15.938 --> 23:22.630 Because he wasn't really interested in his thoughts, he was interested in what was real about him, or about reality. 23:24.173 --> 23:27.219 Of course, then he started thinking about it, and he came up with some good ideas. 23:30.885 --> 23:32.809 But he never became enlightened. 23:37.008 --> 23:43.081 I guess I mean to say that the best part of his meditations was when he was actually looking and saying, hey, this is all there is. 23:43.903 --> 23:46.468 Once he started thinking about it, oh, he got all mixed up. 23:49.755 --> 23:52.401 I mean, not mixed up, but he added things that weren't actually there. 23:55.503 --> 24:17.863 They say that he was under duress because anybody who... What he was really trying to do was be able to separate the body and the mind because the mind had free will and the whole idea of God, he had to separate God out from the body because otherwise he couldn't talk about the body as being deterministic. 24:18.864 --> 24:20.326 So he was just sort of... 24:21.567 --> 24:25.290 Anyway, he still got in quite a bit of trouble, I think, for... 24:25.270 --> 24:28.256 expressing his views. 24:30.019 --> 24:32.303 So he kind of had to include God. 24:33.726 --> 24:41.641 Anyway, it's not your question, but it does relate to people in history because they're not as wise, I think, as you're making them out to be. 24:43.645 --> 24:48.173 They were conventionally wise, but not like a Buddha. 24:57.333 --> 25:00.096 I note all my emotions with feeling, feeling. 25:00.477 --> 25:02.319 Any problems with that? 25:02.339 --> 25:08.667 We kind of had this question last night, and the problem is that you don't really experience them as feeling, feeling. 25:09.268 --> 25:11.991 If you're angry, you don't think of it as a feeling, you think of it as anger. 25:13.153 --> 25:17.799 If you want something, it's not a feeling, it's wanting. 25:19.180 --> 25:22.885 I mean, arguably it is kind of a feeling in a general sense of the word, but 25:24.350 --> 25:25.673 It's not all that helpful. 25:26.234 --> 25:30.304 You're not really going to be clear about what you're experiencing if you don't use the right word. 25:32.810 --> 25:36.739 So it's one thing to get obsessive about finding the right word, but it's another to be lazy. 25:43.587 --> 25:46.832 My mind started to rebel even to the thought of meditation. 25:47.372 --> 25:51.338 It's hard to be focused with annoyance, impatience, and a wanting mind. 25:52.179 --> 25:56.265 I do note these feelings, but right now I might have to experience them a little longer. 25:56.285 --> 26:01.332 I see why I'm annoyed, distracted, but I would be happy to hear your thoughts on this. 26:02.413 --> 26:07.941 Perhaps you have some info on how to get through this. 26:14.182 --> 26:16.226 Well, the thought of meditation is just a thought. 26:16.286 --> 26:21.294 I mean, it's interesting that you've gotten averse to it. 26:21.375 --> 26:25.902 It's common because meditation is tough and the mind doesn't like tough. 26:25.922 --> 26:27.686 But meditation doesn't exist. 26:27.766 --> 26:30.250 It's just a thought you have. 26:32.086 --> 26:41.382 Now, the whole idea of insight meditation is to figure out how to overcome that, how to be free from the influence of your suffering. 26:42.244 --> 26:46.611 So it's stressful when you think about that meditation, but not because of the thought. 26:46.631 --> 26:48.615 The thought and the meditation aren't the problem. 26:49.636 --> 26:56.288 The thought is the annoyance, what you say, annoyance, impatience, and wanting minds. 26:57.753 --> 26:59.355 So that's what you're meditating on. 27:00.056 --> 27:02.280 You're learning to see them clearly and let go of them. 27:03.642 --> 27:06.706 If you don't like meditating, well that's just one more thing you don't like. 27:06.907 --> 27:08.249 And that's what you should meditate on. 27:09.550 --> 27:10.892 The thing and the disliking. 27:13.376 --> 27:14.398 Because otherwise you suffer. 27:14.438 --> 27:21.448 If you're always playing or following your emotions, 27:23.318 --> 27:26.123 You may be a slave to them and you just reinforce them. 27:26.945 --> 27:29.449 They become stronger and they cause you more stress and suffering. 27:38.727 --> 27:42.694 I have a tendency to escape into meditation and the Dhamma talks. 27:45.138 --> 27:50.264 Well, there's no trick to it. 27:50.944 --> 28:11.567 As with everything else, there's no trick, you know. 28:13.589 --> 28:14.633 You just have to do it. 28:15.094 --> 28:18.566 You have to learn to be mindful, learn to see things as they are. 28:19.469 --> 28:20.713 Nobody's going to do it for you. 28:20.894 --> 28:22.941 I can't fix your problems with my answers. 28:28.102 --> 28:29.103 I mean, there's much there. 28:29.163 --> 28:48.124 I mean, whether studying is actually beneficial, you might eventually decide that studying is not in your best interest, but when it's something you have to do, you have to look at your mind and you have to learn how to let go of your attachment to, in this case, watching YouTube videos. 28:49.726 --> 28:53.670 If it's something that pleases you, you have to say, you know, wanting, wanting, or 28:55.135 --> 28:56.319 Pleasure, pleasure. 28:56.359 --> 28:58.165 Happy, happy. 29:00.534 --> 29:02.139 If you're averse to studying, there you go. 29:02.842 --> 29:04.628 Just averse to meditating. 29:05.591 --> 29:06.715 Meditate on the aversion. 29:30.607 --> 29:31.108 It's still there? 29:32.992 --> 29:34.635 Yes, but I couldn't hear you for a moment. 29:35.056 --> 29:35.437 Uh-oh. 29:38.663 --> 29:44.555 I'm not sure if I disconnected, or you did, or it was just an internet glitch there. 29:44.575 --> 29:45.477 Well, I heard myself. 29:46.520 --> 29:48.063 Okay. 29:48.584 --> 29:54.355 At the end of one of your Dometalks maybe last night, the audio cut off completely. 29:55.577 --> 29:58.944 I could hear you, but it wasn't coming through on YouTube. 29:58.964 --> 30:01.609 So a little something going on with the audio. 30:03.209 --> 30:06.853 Something happened yesterday and I felt immense pity for myself. 30:07.634 --> 30:11.538 I tried to note but I was working with someone and found it difficult. 30:12.099 --> 30:16.304 About an hour later I sat and meditated and noted the immense sadness for a while. 30:17.385 --> 30:19.988 After an intense period it went away. 30:20.008 --> 30:22.010 I was surprised but jubilant. 30:22.370 --> 30:25.434 The sadness came back several times over the next hour or two. 30:26.115 --> 30:30.600 And each time I did a mini meditation and each time I felt the sadness was less and less. 30:31.280 --> 30:32.642 But then things got worse. 30:32.622 --> 30:36.167 I acknowledged feelings over and over, but it got steadily worse. 30:36.748 --> 30:39.252 In the end I was so distressed I thought it would be good to die. 30:40.213 --> 30:41.635 Not going to, just thoughts. 30:42.336 --> 30:44.219 I stopped meditating until this morning. 30:44.740 --> 30:51.991 I'm still distressed, but am now doing short bursts of meditation, getting a lot of practicing and noting thinking. 30:52.572 --> 30:56.217 Is there a way of better managing when there are overwhelming emotions? 30:56.753 --> 30:58.436 No, I mean, all of this is inside. 30:58.536 --> 31:00.199 This is habits. 31:00.359 --> 31:07.892 And as soon as you start to try to change your habits, your mind rebels or reacts. 31:08.653 --> 31:10.977 Because it's like trying to stem the tide. 31:10.997 --> 31:13.682 It really can overwhelm you. 31:14.793 --> 31:16.495 Or, you know, trying to... 31:17.617 --> 31:19.279 It's not comfortable to change. 31:21.882 --> 31:27.650 That being said, you have to be careful not to get caught up in the disappearing of things. 31:27.770 --> 31:39.045 It's good that you see that sometimes when you know that your mind is clear for a moment and the problem disappears, but it's important not to get stuck on that. 31:39.025 --> 31:45.757 You have to come back to the present moment and be mindful of what's next because there might be stronger emotions. 31:46.438 --> 31:50.746 But the point is that no matter how strong the emotion gets, it's only an emotion. 31:51.607 --> 31:57.878 That's the difference between these two approaches, practicing to get rid of things and practicing to be invincible to them. 31:59.410 --> 32:00.251 It's quite different. 32:01.272 --> 32:03.875 When you focus on the pain, there's two approaches. 32:04.516 --> 32:06.198 One is thinking, how can I get rid of this? 32:06.778 --> 32:09.141 And the other is thinking, how can I stop reacting to it? 32:10.142 --> 32:19.212 So no matter how distressed you get, or no matter what kind of thoughts you have, thoughts of killing yourself, thoughts of killing other people, thoughts of doing the worst of worst things are just thoughts. 32:22.095 --> 32:24.658 Even your emotions are just emotions. 32:25.752 --> 32:55.320 it's when you react to them and get upset about them that you cause them you could turn them into a problem so there's no I'm distressed distress arises just remind yourself okay this is now forget about the past sometimes you say to yourself it worked before why doesn't it work now or you start to doubt because hey it's getting worse but getting worse is just an appeal to the past and the future it's not being in the present in the present things can't get worse they just are what they are 32:56.937 --> 33:00.962 And then at that point, no matter how bad it gets, it is what it is. 33:02.103 --> 33:05.707 It's not better or worse, more or less, stronger or weaker. 33:07.189 --> 33:07.950 It's all relative. 33:08.691 --> 33:10.753 And relative is just past and future. 33:11.073 --> 33:11.814 It's not present. 33:19.944 --> 33:23.027 So I guess that the key is don't be overwhelmed by your emotions. 33:24.329 --> 33:25.510 Then they won't be overwhelming. 33:36.661 --> 33:38.343 Someone wants the live stream. 33:42.209 --> 33:44.733 It's funny, this app was supposed to have the live stream, did it? 33:45.173 --> 33:46.115 Click on live stream. 33:47.457 --> 33:49.159 Live stream currently offline. 33:49.760 --> 33:49.920 Oh. 33:52.564 --> 33:53.065 You know what? 33:53.085 --> 33:54.787 I wonder if I'm broadcasting to the... 33:54.848 --> 33:55.048 I am. 33:55.108 --> 33:56.971 I'm broadcasting to the wrong place, I think. 33:58.833 --> 33:59.014 No. 33:59.314 --> 34:00.556 Where am I broadcasting to? 34:03.200 --> 34:03.360 Huh. 34:05.213 --> 34:07.336 I think I am broadcasting to the wrong place. 34:16.287 --> 34:17.669 Oh, I'm not broadcasting at all. 34:17.929 --> 34:26.901 Shoot. 34:27.961 --> 34:28.623 That's funny. 34:29.607 --> 34:30.731 This is just going nowhere. 34:31.755 --> 34:33.461 It's funny that it's not telling me about it. 34:34.505 --> 34:36.031 Just a second, let me fix that. 34:36.533 --> 34:38.460 I have to figure out the port. 35:11.768 --> 35:13.355 Sounds like everything on YouTube. 35:17.593 --> 35:21.610 It sounds like everything was coming out fine on YouTube, though. 35:42.025 --> 35:45.015 Yes, now it's broadcasting to the new server. 36:34.017 --> 36:36.964 Why did it turn off? 36:36.984 --> 36:37.806 That's interesting. 36:39.330 --> 36:40.112 I know what it is. 36:41.475 --> 36:45.384 When I type an M, I bet. 36:45.404 --> 36:45.585 No. 36:46.206 --> 36:47.670 Shift M. No? 36:48.872 --> 36:50.496 Is that a shortcut from you? 36:50.516 --> 36:51.058 I think it is. 36:51.078 --> 36:52.060 I think there's things. 36:56.613 --> 37:01.642 Yeah, A and D. That's what's turning it off. 37:01.662 --> 37:03.064 That's probably what happened last night. 37:03.886 --> 37:06.831 I set up some shortcuts and it works even when I'm not in the window. 37:08.274 --> 37:09.396 Let's get rid of those. 37:11.359 --> 37:12.521 We don't need shortcuts. 37:13.924 --> 37:16.708 I was wondering, because earlier as well, I'm like, I thought I turned that on. 37:16.769 --> 37:19.213 Why did it turn off? 37:19.233 --> 37:19.313 Hmm. 37:23.360 --> 37:24.481 Okay, so here's the thing. 37:24.902 --> 37:28.606 There is a live stream and it's at a new location. 37:28.746 --> 37:32.690 So go to the app in the menu and then click on live stream. 37:34.172 --> 37:46.245 And then as to where it is being saved, it should be saved in our new subdomain. 37:47.567 --> 37:47.967 Yes. 37:49.415 --> 38:18.983 share.sirimongolo.org front slash broadcast so here's where they should be the new this recording right now which just started a few minutes ago should be here at this new address share.sirimongolo.org front slash broadcast we should add that link to the live stream page it should actually say here's where the the 38:21.359 --> 38:22.921 Here's where the archive is. 38:26.045 --> 38:26.807 I'll do that now. 38:26.827 --> 38:28.148 I'll open an issue. 38:30.131 --> 38:30.812 Any more questions? 38:30.892 --> 38:31.473 How are we doing? 38:34.056 --> 38:35.398 Sort of questions. 38:35.899 --> 38:39.965 Did you intend to have no chat on the YouTube today? 38:40.105 --> 38:40.666 Yes. 38:40.846 --> 38:41.567 The chat was disabled. 38:41.587 --> 38:44.110 That was intentional. 38:44.551 --> 38:49.678 And then Meg was asking about the old talks and I didn't 38:50.350 --> 38:58.802 I know there was a page on the old site that had all the old talks. 38:59.102 --> 39:00.945 Well, they should still be at the old location. 39:00.965 --> 39:07.374 I wasn't able to access them, and apparently Meg wasn't. 39:07.855 --> 39:09.758 Oh, because they're at meditation. 39:10.919 --> 39:14.484 Yeah, I think since the changeover to the website. 39:14.504 --> 39:15.025 Right. 39:17.502 --> 39:21.469 Let's see if I can fix that and provide access to those again. 39:21.889 --> 39:23.712 But they're going to all be old ones now. 39:23.732 --> 39:25.255 The new ones aren't going to go to that place. 39:26.878 --> 39:41.162 Let's see. 39:41.182 --> 39:41.923 There's nothing there. 39:52.568 --> 39:53.229 Oh, there we are. 39:53.709 --> 39:54.009 Okay. 39:55.471 --> 39:57.493 Now I've just got to find a place to put these. 40:15.349 --> 40:15.730 Okay. 40:16.210 --> 40:17.051 I've just moved them. 40:21.135 --> 40:22.356 So they are now... 40:23.720 --> 40:29.588 Should be at audio.sirimongolo.org, right? 40:29.688 --> 40:31.671 SiriMongolo.org. 40:31.831 --> 40:32.612 Let's see about this. 40:34.335 --> 40:34.615 Oh, no. 40:34.756 --> 40:35.316 That didn't work. 40:35.577 --> 40:45.210 Why doesn't audio.siri... Oh, wait. 40:45.230 --> 40:47.213 No. 40:47.233 --> 40:49.356 Didn't we have an audio.sirimongolo.org? 40:51.766 --> 40:59.856 It was static.seriemongolo.org directaudio.com that one. 40:59.876 --> 41:02.459 Yeah, but wasn't there a... 41:02.479 --> 41:04.522 Shoot, there was, but it's gone now, I think. 41:08.306 --> 41:14.614 I thought I had an audio page that's some PHP work. 41:14.634 --> 41:15.094 Oh, you're right. 41:15.435 --> 41:18.479 Yeah, you're right. 41:18.499 --> 41:19.700 Yeah, it's like on my web blog. 41:19.720 --> 41:20.541 There's a link to that. 41:22.124 --> 41:23.346 And of course none of them are there. 41:25.891 --> 41:27.333 It doesn't actually work anymore. 41:32.042 --> 41:32.743 And I can answer. 41:34.005 --> 41:38.513 Where can I buy your book in Belgium? 41:38.830 --> 41:42.718 You can't buy Bante's books for sale, but we do give them away for free. 41:43.359 --> 41:52.297 And actually, our volunteer group is right in the process of setting up a system where right now we have a lot of the extra booklets that are in Sri Lanka, which is where they're printed. 41:52.918 --> 41:57.227 And they're being sent to a couple of well-placed volunteers, one in Europe. 41:57.612 --> 42:01.939 one in India and one in the United States. 42:02.741 --> 42:08.150 And from there, we'll have something on the website where you can request one, and our volunteers will send one out to you. 42:08.611 --> 42:18.828 It's going to take a couple of weeks because I think the estimate was about four to six weeks from Sri Lanka to the destinations before the volunteers get them to mail them out. 42:18.889 --> 42:21.493 So check the website maybe in about a month from now. 42:27.160 --> 42:37.736 I don't know what's wrong there, but I don't have time for that. 42:39.399 --> 42:40.601 So what are we going to do? 42:40.621 --> 42:41.802 We'll go here instead. 42:41.863 --> 42:42.363 Does that work? 42:42.944 --> 42:43.465 Yes, it does. 43:36.382 --> 43:36.903 Okay. 43:39.847 --> 43:41.810 That should work. 43:41.831 --> 43:51.045 Not ideal, but where are we? 43:51.065 --> 43:56.854 So I put on my web blog a new link to the audio, which is here. 43:58.994 --> 44:10.411 So if you go to that, which Robin pointed out, you'll find a directory and you should find a new subdirectory called live. 44:12.034 --> 44:16.260 And the live subdirectory is where all the old live streams are now. 44:43.240 --> 44:46.467 Thank you, Bunthe. 44:46.487 --> 44:46.888 Are we done? 44:49.214 --> 44:50.356 We're all caught up on questions. 44:51.238 --> 44:51.399 Alright. 44:52.842 --> 44:54.065 And that's all for tonight, then. 44:54.225 --> 44:55.528 Thank you all for tuning in. 44:55.588 --> 44:58.014 Thank you, Robin, for your help. 44:58.034 --> 44:58.936 Have a good night, everyone. 45:00.620 --> 45:01.502 Thank you, Bunthe.