Okay, so this is
an interview I'd like to because we're curious and I think our... something that people could benefit from in general maybe people who are curious or people who are interested or people who are preparing even to make such a step what is it that makes you
come to this decision?
What salient points make you come to this decision of, which is really quite a decision, that not only will you come to do meditation courses or even stay at a monastery, but to shave your head and put on robes?
What is it that actually even interests you, or what's the benefit that you see in that?
Because you've spent time in monasteries and meditation centers as a layperson.
That is a very good question.
As you told before, I've tried it out many times and I can only recommend to everybody who's thinking about it to go to many retreats.
Think about this very deeply.
I found myself making retreats, being very, very interested in ordaining, and then I stepped back many times.
I found myself still thinking that out there is something that not as much to do.
but clinging to many things and wondering if I could make it, if I could actually live this life and be happy with it.
And I think this is one of the reasons why I want to ordain.
As much as I try to have no expectations, because expectations usually, well,
are not met the way you want them to.
But you mentioned shaving your head.
I didn't think it was a big thing, but you do notice once you do it, it is a big thing.
And another thing is, where I find myself with a new name, my ego is somehow identified with another name, and this does create some confusion, something I have to deal with.
I find it interesting, I find it very challenging, and I'm looking forward to whatever is coming.
Is that what I want to say?
I spent three months from December till February here and I thought that there was still something to do from where I come from.
I thought I'd really enjoy going back to Berlin.
I thought it was going to be very exciting.
We talked about it and I found it totally uninteresting and I couldn't wait to just finally stop that worldly wanting, wanting.
Wow.
OK, I don't have anything else to say.